Blog Everyday In May Challenge

Day 13, Monday: Issue a public apology. This can be as funny or as serious or as creative as you want it to be.

This has actually been quite a year for apologies. I’ve let go of a few grudges once I realized that they were only hurting me, weighing me down, and making my life a little more difficult. I’ve really had to swallow my pride and apologize for the way I’ve wronged people. Life happens, but I don’t think that’s any excuse. I feel so much better now that I’ve 1) admitted what I did wrong and 2) said sorry, and truly meant it. So it goes, I’ll probably never have to stop apologizing and bringing things back around. That’s a constant cycle. But I do think that we can always learn to treat people better and to forgive people, too. 

I’m constantly reminded of Wildewood’s lyrics in their song Several Things: 

…If I said I was better for the paths I have trod on

Would that justify 

All that I have done?

 

…And the thought of infinitely paying the price

For the selfish way that I have laid down my dice

It terrifies me to no end

With several things I have never said 

 

I am constantly asking myself this question. 

Well, that experience really made me who I am.

I had to go through it, even if it was all caused by me.

Well, it’s what I wanted at the time. 

No. Those excuses are merely that… excuses. Therefore, this blog today, won’t be a specific public apology, because many of those are too personal and hey, you’d be proud, I’m dealing with those things person to person! yay. 

I will close out today with a new poem. As always, thanks for stopping by Hey Lou. 

Fare Thee Well

I will see it someday

The shooting star promised

Or I could

The potential is there even if it doesn’t happen

In this life

 

I will never

So many things

This, too, could happen

But I do every time I rest and breath in and remember

Where people (I) think it’s just black

 

Unexpected

 

the gray area

the light

the only thing

not here

 

I wish

I wish my

I wish my name was

No, never mind

 

And I still

Have never seen a shooting star

Not once

 

So I say

Fare thee well

And I realize, after all of that

I have roots

Right here

 

100 I’m gonna change my minds

That time

Wasted

 

I will take these old shoes to get where

I am meant to be

I have a Grey area right here

That is better

That is Real

 

And I don’t need shooting stars

 

Love, Lou

(and I’m sorry!)