My favorite thing to do right now is drink a cider with my twin. Luckily, I did this very thing last night.
While drinking a cider at a bar with your sister and best friends, here are the rules:
Laugh and cause a ruckus.
Eat an entire gluten free pizza in the process, because that rarely happens. ;)
Don’t think about life and don’t get serious. Save that for later.
I’ve been pondering life lately, which could sound deep and profound, but usually it’s small little thoughts that don’t amount to much. Like:
“Why did I say _____?”
“What do I feel about ____?”
“Why does ______ affect me this way?”
“When ____ said ____ I felt ___. WHY?”
“What am I doing?”
Your typical, run of the mill life questions.
I recently had a conversation with a friend about life changing moments. We both agreed that people can change quickly. I said, “An entire lifetime can happen in one day.” By that I mean, something so profound can happen that changes you forever.
You can age, so so much, in one day.
You can suddenly feel younger.
Your opinions can change, your entire outlook on life. Not even in a day, but sometimes in just one moment. All it takes is the perfect sentence to be read or heard… all it takes is a look in someone’s eye or a feeling of being cared for or something to strike you as so sad and horrible that a part of you is stuck in that experience forever and you now live life … just… differently.
I have been thinking about this a lot. I have been wondering who I was one year ago. Sometimes I don’t recognize myself and rarely do I want to go back, but sometimes I sit and ponder why I wrote what I wrote, why I said what I said, and ultimately, how was I justifying my actions?
Then I did something I rarely do (because once I write something, I have a bad habit of never wanting to read it again… unless it’s a manuscript that still needs work, which is all of them right now) and I looked at what I was writing here on Hey Lou Writes almost exactly a year ago. The closest date was December 8th. Close enough, right?
Me on Dec. 8, 2012.
How I feel NOW: (and my current FB profile pic, haha)
Do I look older? Wiser? Is anything in a photograph real?
Here’s a link to that older post. I want to share it because it seems to be coming from a different version of Lou. Though I remember writing this post well, I am also baffled as to how I was that person. I can no longer stay up so late without some serious consequences (aka, being really tired.) I still carry around the same journal and others, but my notes are much more sporatic.
But I’m still having Too Many Thoughts.
I still love the Rumi quote. I still am haunted by a memory monster.
Yet I am a completely different person in so many ways, it’s hard to know where to start.
If you take a look at the post from a year ago, I’d love to know what you think. Did you change as much as I did?
Is there a moment (or a more than one) in your life that changed you for good? Has a lifetime happened in one day?
Let me know if I’m not alone…..