Day 13, Monday: Issue a public apology. This can be as funny or as serious or as creative as you want it to be.
This has actually been quite a year for apologies. I’ve let go of a few grudges once I realized that they were only hurting me, weighing me down, and making my life a little more difficult. I’ve really had to swallow my pride and apologize for the way I’ve wronged people. Life happens, but I don’t think that’s any excuse. I feel so much better now that I’ve 1) admitted what I did wrong and 2) said sorry, and truly meant it. So it goes, I’ll probably never have to stop apologizing and bringing things back around. That’s a constant cycle. But I do think that we can always learn to treat people better and to forgive people, too.
I’m constantly reminded of Wildewood’s lyrics in their song Several Things:
…If I said I was better for the paths I have trod on
Would that justify
All that I have done?
…And the thought of infinitely paying the price
For the selfish way that I have laid down my dice
It terrifies me to no end
With several things I have never said
I am constantly asking myself this question.
Well, that experience really made me who I am.
I had to go through it, even if it was all caused by me.
Well, it’s what I wanted at the time.
No. Those excuses are merely that… excuses. Therefore, this blog today, won’t be a specific public apology, because many of those are too personal and hey, you’d be proud, I’m dealing with those things person to person! yay.
I will close out today with a new poem. As always, thanks for stopping by Hey Lou.
Fare Thee Well
I will see it someday
The shooting star promised
Or I could
The potential is there even if it doesn’t happen
In this life
I will never
So many things
This, too, could happen
But I do every time I rest and breath in and remember
Where people (I) think it’s just black
the gray area
the only thing
I wish my
I wish my name was
No, never mind
And I still
Have never seen a shooting star
So I say
Fare thee well
And I realize, after all of that
I have roots
100 I’m gonna change my minds
I will take these old shoes to get where
I am meant to be
I have a Grey area right here
That is better
That is Real
And I don’t need shooting stars
(and I’m sorry!)